mia fell • 10.10.07
not long ago, i blogged about mia falling from the bed while sleeping. just this morning, she fell higher than that — from our countertop table. it was my mom who was with her since i was already at work. they were having breakfast when my mom — just for a nanosecond — left her sitting there alone. she wasn’t really far from mia, and it happened in a split second.
my mom said it was like one moment she was sitting there and the next she was right over the other side already, on the floor. she really didn’t see mia fall from the table, nor did she hear anything. parang nag-vanishing act lang si mia.
so there she was on the floor crying, but with no scratch or bruise on her, not even a bump on her head. my mom was actually panicking when she called me on my cellphone and told me to come home. she was short of fainting na daw. (nerbyosa talaga mom ko eh, and this is the 2nd time mia had an ‘incident’ with her). but thankfully, mia’s acting normally and there’s nothing really wrong with her.
i couldn’t help but cry a little on my way home because i was so worried that something might happen to mia, but i guess God did answer my prayers. every night i always pray that He take care of her when and even if i can’t. that mia doesn’t get sick or that being a premature baby, she grows up well and healthy like any kid. i tell Him that i can’t always be there, not even my family, to watch out for her so i just put my trust in someone who’s a better guardian than i am.
usually, the prayer is really more for me because with it i learn how to trust like a child. it’s really one way to not put hope in myself or in other people (though that’s not a bad thing) entirely but to know that my faith in someone not bound by any empirical definition works.
for other people that’s not acceptable. they are the captains of their ships and the masters of their souls. but i guess if there’s anything to be learned here, when you discover faith in Him, He will always keep His promise no matter how disfunctional or flawed or wrong you are most of the time. it’s just a matter of trust like a child really. it’s when you have no worries because you know your Father’s hand hold yours and He will never let go.
so maybe He really did want me to learn a lesson. and maybe it really was His hand that caught mia when she fell this morning.
