the world stood still
when i saw her. the feeling was incomparable to anything i have felt my whole life. it was a transition to another world where only she mattered.
This is mia Mishka Andrea. She’s still small at 42cm and 2.14lbs but i’m hoping that she’ll grow bigger soon. It was rather soon that she decided to surprise us all last November 20, but I’m happy nonetheless. She’s an early Christmas gift.
and i cried. because she’s so tiny and i wanted to hold her but i couldnt. i wanted to tell her everything will be ok, and i hoped she could understand. i wanted her to come home with me, but she couldnt.
I went to see her today and she hasn’t changed a bit. I know, it’s only been a couple of days. You can’t really blame anyone who went through hours of labor and “un-anesthetized” delivery for worrying so much. I guess having gone through all that stuff has given me a whole different perspective on motherhood. I used to just take it for granted. *sniff* I miss her already.
I can’t even look at her pictures and her video without crying and feeling so helpless. I can’t even do anything to help her get better. I can just pray that she starts feeding soon and that she recognizes my touch or my voice when I visit her everyday. *hay*
please pray for mia, so she can come home soon.
November 23rd, 2006 at 6:30 pm
she will be okay soon, sis. a lot of people are praying for her. remember na she is loved even if she was still in your tummy.
ka-birthday pa pala niya ang aking pinaka-mamahal na nanay. =) be strong coz she will feel it.
will see you soon. and you are both included in my prayers. mwah!
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November 24th, 2006 at 4:37 am
she really is precious…praying you get to take her home soon dear. grabe, brand new chapter na talaga ito!
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November 24th, 2006 at 10:09 am
thanks for the prayers. i’m really looking forward to taking her home soon.
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