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#075 music shuffle

got tagged by ida

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1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag people to play this game too.

How are you feeling today?
tonight i can write the saddest lines (neruda read by Andy Garcia)

Will you get far in life?
kaleidoscope world (francis m)

How do your friends see you?
sayang (stonefree)

Will you get married?
the wash (dr dre/snoop dogg) — what the??

What is your best friend’s theme song?
no diggity (blackstreet)

What is the story of your life?
his eye is on the sparrow (lauren hill)

What was high school like?
like Elmo’s Rap Alphabet (elmo) haha

How can you get ahead in life?
be my world (milky)

What is the best thing about your friends?
they Stick With You (PCD) — awww

What is today going to be like?
Earth (me’shell degeocello)

What is in store for this weekend?
the Truth (bamboo) — hmmm

What song Describes you?
angels brought me here (guy sebastian) — i was!?? really??

To describe your grandparents?
a dream is a wish your heart makes (disney OST)

How is your life going?
brokenhearted (brandy/boyz II men) — can it get any weirder?

What song will they play at your funeral?
didn’t know (splender) — yeah, i didnt know i was going to die hehehe

How does the world see you?
manila high (kala)

Will you have a happy life?
i’m a Naughty Girl daw (beyonce) — hahaha

What do your friends really think of you?
i’m a Prelude in E Minor (some Jazz dude)

Do people secretly lust after you?
promiscuous girl (nelly furtado/timbaland)

How can I make myself happy?
too bad (nickelback)

What should you do with your life?
maging katulad ni Narda (kamikaze)

Will you ever have children?
i miss you (incubus)

hehe interesting. try it, and lemme read it.

#074

Sorrow is better than laughter,
because a sad face is good for the heart.
Ecclesiastes 7:3 NIV

how exactly does sadness contribute to my well being?? i’ve been complaining all day about the current status of my (hormonal) self, never bothering to look at the bright side, and have a perpetual rain cloud over my head.

bah humbug.

coming home early from work, i hear this pastor on the radio; my mom has just tuned in to DZAS. i think he was talking to me when he said, “kung malungkot ka, eh di malungkot ka! matatapos din yang kalungkutan mo. magsasawa din yan sayo. sa bawat segundo na ginagawa mong takpan ng kaligayahan ng mundo ang kalungkutan mo, maraming oras, araw at taon ang ipangbabayad mo diyan.” that was straightforward. i started to protest quietly that i wasn’t going to, but i remembered many a time that i’ve tried to drown my sadness by going out, laughing out loud at my friends’ jokes, or even dancing the night away. in fact, i was planning to go out tonight to that johnny walker party in manila because i was bored.

truth is, i feel so empty inside. and my solution to my problem is to go out and try to forget about it; let the loud bass replace the beating of my heart, the drunken people sway me to another time and place, and everything else make me less human so i won’t feel hollow. but im home. safe and sound in my bedroom, where the only beating sound is the rain on the rooftop. surprisingly, i feel half full now. i’ve dissected my problem in my mind, and i’ve translated some of it in words.

more than anything, i let myself to just be sad. i am sad, i am lonely. i feel like crying until my tear glands dry up. i pour my heart out to Him. for the complex feelings that are making a carnage out of my being, i let God handle that. He knows.

so how has sadness helped me? it has made me familiar with The Solution to all problems that i haven’t been aware of for a long time until now.