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#068 to you my friend

have you ever had a friend who you’ve always thought would be there for you always? that no matter what, he will never forget, never turn his back, never deny you friendship?

have you ever had a friend who just did the complete opposite of all that?

nothing can describe how i feel about you now; you left me hanging. i just launched into a very difficult time in my life, one that i never thought i would experience when we were kids, playing with matchbox cars in dirty clothes and snot in our noses. you just asked me what happened, and that was it. how could you have so much coldness for me, that you never even bothered to check back?

it was enough for us that we only get to talk once in a while. but there are friendships, like those common forwarded text messages would say, that are content to be ‘invisible’. we’re both busy, you have a lovelife to sustain, i have my own problems to deal with. but that was not a hindrance to our familiarity with each other. but right that moment, that i was practically screaming (well virtually anyway) for help, i never found it.

i dont want to hate you for not being there for me. you have a life of your own, probably even more important than mine. i just hope that when the day comes that we see each other again, i will have enough courage to tell you how you made me feel today and that im ready to forgive you still.