Nap Time Rocks!

#043

on Vineland past the candle shrine that burns on every night
for someone
she lets herself go
like an angel in the snow
she lays down on her back
down on her back – she goes
take me over when I’m gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I’m gone
will they burn for me
on Vineland past the candle shrine that melts into the street design
she waits – for someone
tonight she’ll give herself away
she’ll break apart all by herself
its so easy how we come undone
take me over when I’m gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I’m gone
will they burn for me
she pulls me in – strips me down
she pulls me in – turns me out
she pulls me in – strips me down
take me over when I’m gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I’m gone
will they burn for me
will they burn for me

-candleburn, dishwalla

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what is it with songs? how they capture the unexpressed and unspoken for those unable to?

#42 paalam, kaibigan

alam ko matagal kitang pinaghintay noon. gusto mo kong tulungan pero sabi kong wag na, kaya ko naman na hindi ikaw ang kasama eh. sayang lang panahon mo sakin.

pero pinilit mo ko. pinilit mong gamitin kita. di rin kita matanggihan, wala na akong choice.

sandali lang tayo nagsama. noon nandyan ka lang, sa tabi, tahimik, di mo ko pinakikialaman. kahit na i settled for less minsan mo lang ako sinumbatan. ‘ayan kasi, anong napala mo?!’ oo alam ko, mali ako noon. sana nilubos ko na ang pagsasama natin noon.

ngayon, wala ka na. iniwan mo na ako. sana masaya ka kung nasan ka man, di man lang ako nakapagpaalam. sana mapasaya mo ang nagmamay-ari sayo ngayon kung pano din ako sumaya sa ‘yo. sana marami kayong marating, tulad nung magkasama tayo. sana mahalin at alagaan ka din niya tulad ng ginawa ko para sa ‘yo. sana.

ako? makakahanap din ako ng iba, balang araw.

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in memory of my silver Cross pen that managed to slip out of my pocket this afternoon. it probably moved on to a better ‘after pen-life’. sniff.