#017
September 16th, 2004 Posted in What's it like to be me
dear God,
i have defiled the entirety that is myself and i ask Your forgiveness. how many times have i asked favor in Your eyes? how many times did i also doubt the promise of your unprejudiced pardon?
right now i wish not to explain how you grant forgiveness to someone like myself. no, not rationally, which is Man’s way. after all, not all things can be explained logically. like Your grace, Your mercy, Your love, Your justice.
neither emotionally, which is often times my way. but i want to acknowlede you in the way You want me to — through Your Spirit. how this should happen, i just don’t know.
now is the time of the surrendering of the will. only then do i see the ‘big picture’. only then does the spirit have its silence.
